王盈方醫師瘋狂之旅 Dr Yvonne Wang's Blabberings

The world collapses

In LA now! California sunshine? Man it's freezing! 15oC here! And it's summer?! 幻想破滅! Ate at a Japanese fast food place ran by the Espaniol! Weird, but it actually tastes great! Will write more later! 周週末回台北兩天~

In my personal experience, these two words are worlds apart. To forgive does not necessarily mean the issue is forgotten. To forget does not mean the issue is forgiven.

Numbness
This seems to be a common problem among doctors. To survive medicine and avoid a nervous breakdown, one must not get too emotional or involved with their patients. Naturally indeed, I do not get emotionally involved with my patients. It seems like I only get anxious when the patient is unstable and might die if I don’t make the proper decision. Although this has helped me to survive, I have trouble switching between numbness and emotional between patients vs. my family & friends.

Stone

Nobody is perfect until you fall in love with them.
Love starts with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a tear.

I know a person, who’s just like a mirror.

Words are powerful. Words sway.
Even untruthful words can sound convincing.

Have you ever had the experience of getting off on the wrong start with someone? Sometimes the initial impressions last, and you’re stuck with the belief that “I will never get along with that person, so I don’t need to get to know that person well, as there are many others who I will get along better with and more worth investing my time in”. Other times, you and the person get to know each other, the misunderstandings might clear away. Furthermore, people are dynamic, and there is potential for further change or maturity as they grow older.

I only put up articles and diary extracts that are directly related to my personal life experience and hardships encountered, which I have identified with. I’m not here to please people, but to voice my honest thoughts. So for those that think my opinions are too strong, well, I don’t mean to offend anyone personally. I do not claim to do great stuff for mankind, and I do not even claim myself to be a good Christian. Frankly speaking, I do not admire Christians that preaches but never does what they say or is never tries to apply the principles into their everyday lives. But I’ve seen many people like that around. I myself am not capable of incorporating Christian principles & values 24hrs/day, 7 days/week, but I do not pretend that I do, whereas some others pretend they do when they don’t. Worse still, some actually fail to see that themselves because their vision is occluded by many things, such as proudness, self-centeredness/ self-absorption, self-deception, denial, fear etc. But this is the real world, and as Christians, we are supposed to love everyone regardless, which I found extremely hard to do. With sin ever present in the world, Christians are probably all hypocrites to varying extents whether we like it or not, I’m afraid, as we can never be perfect, and yet we are obliged to spread God’s word around. One who claims he/she is able to do everything he/she preaches 24/7 have serious deficits in their knowledge of the fundamentals of Christianity. We can only strive to do our best, and that will never be perfect. And do not think that you can just sit there and pray & pray and get what you want… you need to work hard for it yourself at the same time.

When people back chat, you really don't know whether the intention is benign or malignant, or whether there's any intention at all other than to have something to entertain their friends about.

To me, what is genuine and what is not really depends on the mindset. Genuineness in what you say and what you do is one of the most important principles in my life. I feel all uneasy if I say or do something ingenuine.

嫁雞隨雞嫁狗隨狗
這種觀念非常糟糕

Dreamix, a hair salon on Sussex Street (Chinatown area), is having a “hair model night” each week, where one can volunteer to be a hair model and get their hair cut/dyed/permed for free! You can’t really choose your hairstyle – the hairdressing teacher is one who decides on what’s suitable for your face. Anyway, the hairdressing teacher decided to give me a cut and a perm – so that’s what I got, while the other hair model got a cut and a dye.